BOY TO GIRL

It's been days and days...And each day felt like a decade.

Each time she strikes a date on the calendar, it literally bleeds my heart out. I'm wounded inside out, yet I'm on this drive to tear us both apart. I just wish to silently take away all of her pain and put her to a sound sleep. I'm ready to be the devil as long as my angel is smiling. She refuses to smile, she declines all joy, and she repudiates elation. All she is ingesting is a routine of sadness, a day full of grief, and a night of appalling illusion.

I loathe myself for being this to her. She is oblivious. But I know the truth. Just like day and night follow each other but can never coexist. I guess I'm always going to be on the lookout for her. But never show up in person. Call me a coward or call me insane, but all I ever wanted is her to be happy.  I can't sleep without hearing her voice. I can't call her, I don't want to shatter her with my brutal conduct. I'll just have to hold it in till I crash to sleep.

I'm going to speak with her but in my mind. Actually, I can see her sitting beside me wearing her beautiful white dress. Calm and smiling. This is how I like her. She looks splendid. When she laughs and plays, I just don't want her to stop. I gently wait till she is happy setting my hair with her soft warm hands. I like to rendezvous with her calm self when I'm high... This has kept me going so far...

BOY

You look like a vision

In my frantic illusion 

How can I forego this beautiful possession

For whom I have this ultimate obsession

GIRL

In my shallow beauty, you are drenched

How can you see me smile?

When my lips are barely clenched

To stop those tears buried in exile

BOY

I see your face

And a grin arches on mine

Your beauty is eternal

Thy  bliss is imperial

BOY

Have you lost all your conviction in me?

Worst than an evil

Me, is what you perceive?

GIRL

I've stopped thinking

I've stopped speculating

You are a myth to me

Your love is out of my reach

BOY

My entire love only functions for you

You don't see what I see is true

I'm the dusk and you're my dawn

I'll always be there when you close your eyes

And wrap you in the blanket of night

GIRL

You say you are darkness and I'm your light

Why don't you end this fight

And paint us grey

BOY

You don't see the bigger picture

Your thought process is hypothetical

You are the flower I nourish

I don't want thorns around you to flourish

GIRL

Do you hear yourself?

You are fabricating those thorns

What bigger picture do you speak of?

I fail to relate to your theory, all morphed

BOY

You think I'm having a bash

Seeing you pale and exhausted

My soul is burning my senses into ashes

I have no words to describe how I feel

When my only charm of life has no zeal

GIRL

Stop the madness

Stop this curse

Come back to me, my love...

BOY

Oh! How your words fired a bullet into my chest

Instead of pain, I feel comfort

You know, when juice is squeezed out of an orange

You further squeeze bitterness into the bowl

You are that unaware bowl

I don't want bitterness to enter your soul

GIRL

What did you leave me to argue about?

Your whole orientation is crafted around this doubt

You say I lost my conviction

But didn't you?

We are the sailors of the same ship

Trying to ride along with different trips

Why do you expect us to converge?

When life itself is a mixture of roads that always diverge

BOY

You are used to infinite sweetness

You won't like this devil in me

GIRL

I'm used to you

Without you, there's already a devil residing on me

BOY

You are worthy of a golden throne

Why thou you settle for a chair made of rock and stone?

GIRL

Royalty would choke me

And devour me from inside

I'm not a princess

Just a girl who wants to feel precious

In your eyes

In your life

BOY

What more wits do I present before you

Because what you said has credibility of wisest of wise

I just want to go into a slumber

And never want to face this reality

I now want to wake up to a new morning in a meadow

Where you play your flute with melody and mellow

Where you chuckle and giggle

Smile and laugh

And are free from all dissolute thoughts

When shall I find you in a white dress dancing in that meadow?

GIRL

We may be dusk and dawn

We may not be together drawn

We may be wind and breeze

And never walk together along

But just like the flight in a bird

and light in the sun

You are forever in my heart woven

Because you have always been my savior

We'll soon find a meadow for both of us

But for now, close your eyes

In my lap, lay your head 

And let my arms cress